Christmas List

Since I haven't made a Christmas list yet for myself, I suppose this would be the perfect opportunity to make one:
1. brown belt - should be brown but not bulking and must have some type of simple jewel or embellishment on the buckle, but has to be simple and not overpowering.
2. new purse. Big enough to carry items in and be a nice happy color. Can't be black, i hate black. must have pockets inside also.
3. Khakis. I have a pair of khaki that i wear to work. they are hideous and i hope that no one will ever see me wear them outside of work. I wear them there because no one can see them because i'm behind a counter and i don't care if they get dirty. But the khakis i want will be nice enough to wear out and not to feel embrassed, they must have pockets in the back and the color will be dark but not too dark, darkish tan but not too tan. Also i wouldn't mind another less attractive pair for work.
4. Clothes. Every girl wants more clothes. I would like some new clothes that are sweatshirts but don't have apollo written on them. I have too much apollo wear. Also i want long sleeved clothes that will actually keep me warm but that itsn't a sweatshirt or a sweater. Even though i don't know of anything that would keep me warm that isn't a sweatshirt or a sweater.
5. Jeans. I haven't bought any jeans in quite a while so i'm long overdue for some new ones. The pair jeans must have pockets in the back, loopholes and the design on the butt can't be ugly. Also i want jeans that don't drag the floor, because all mine drag right now because i'm so short. I don't have a preference on color other than it has to be jean color blue, not weirdo yellow or something.
6. Camera. The camera i have now is old and doesn't take good pictures worth crap. I want one of the newer ones that will actually take a picture and where it won't be blurry. I don't want a Kodak, because Kodak is what i have now and they are dull.
7. Laptop. I would like to have a laptop for new school year at college. Right now this is not my number one on my list because i'm not sure what i want. and i don't want it to sit around for half a year wasting away before i have to use it.
8. UE sweatshirt. I am going to UE and i want to flaunt it. haha
9. Mini fridge. This will be for college next year. Also not my priority at the moment but something i will need later on.
10. Shoes. I want some shoes that will be different from everyone else's. Not tennis shoes but casual shoes that i could wear with anything like sperrys. but i don't want any more sperry's because everyone else in the world wears sperrys. Maybe some rainboots or something else unique.

Right now this is my list but i'm sure there are more things i just don't know them. I'm happy i actually have the luxury of making a christmas list unlike so many others in the world.

Attitude

“The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude, to me, is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, the education, the money, than circumstances, than failure, than successes, than what other people think or say or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness or skill. It will make or break a company... a church... a home. The remarkable thing is we have a choice everyday regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. We cannot change our past... we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude. I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% of how I react to it. And so it is with you... we are in charge of our Attitudes.”

I found this quote and find it very interesting. I never thought about how much of an impact attitude is on our lives. I always been preached by my mom to have a good attitude about everything and if i have a bad attitude about something then i won't enjoy what i'm doing. Attitude is judged by the outside and can make a difference on how people percieve you. I strive to have a good attitude about everything but i know that i fail miserable. There are many things that i hate to do and have a hard time conceiling that sometimes. Attitude can be seen in alot of things we do: in our faces, body language, and the way we talk. there are several people i see and remark on how they always seen angry about everything but i'm sure there are some people that think i'm a bitter person. I dont believe i'm a bitter person but i do have alot of problems with my personanality that i want to change. Attitude is one of the first things i need to change, but one thing i think that is more inportant than attitude is self confidence. this affects attitude. Self confidence is the biggest thing that affect people's life.

One Semester Left

There is only one semester left!!!! 2 9-weeks left!!! This is the most exciting thing. In 5 months i will be graduated and on my way to college, University of Evansville. I can't wait to get out of these walls. People here treat us like 5-year olds. Seriously no backpacks! That's one of the things I liked about Apollo. And these people can wait til the end of the year when the seniors are gone before they create this rule. Someone has too much power. Just because kids can't carrry around drugs anymore doesn't mean they aren't going to do them at school. If they are determined to bring them to school they are still going to do it. Also the halls are another thing I can't wait to get rid of. When I visited UE, there was no one ever in the halls and plus the halls were twice the size of ours. And people were not overflowing the place. I would see some people studying on couches, some outside walking around, but I didn't ever see a swarm of people anywhere. It was sooo nice. Another thing I can't wait to get rid of is the immaturity. These freshmen run around the halls screaming and laughing like they own the place. They act like 1st graders not freshman, and there is soo many of them. They never go away and they always cause problems. These are just some of the many things about Apollo that I can't wait to rid myself of. Graduation here I come!!!

School Laptops

Complaining is a pretty easy thing to do. So I will complain about our school's laptops. I've had the same laptop for 4 years and until this past month have never had to take it to the help desk except for when the screen cracked. Lately I've been having problems with these pieces of junk. It seems that my laptop loves to play freeze tag. It loves to rest a couple days and then when i get it out to do some work, it will coraporate for a few hours with no problems. But then my laptop will get excited so it decides to freeze up on me. I think to myself, ok that's ok, i was almost done anyway, I'll just finish it up in a second. So i will restart my computer and while i'm logging in, it will freeze again. Now i start to get frustrated. I restart the computer again and log all the way in but when i began to open the document or webpage, the laptop will freeze up. Now my patience is to the end. I furiously restart the computer but it's never the same as when i was first on it. I can't get my work done now and i have to think of a way that i can transfer the info somewhere quickly before it freezes again so i can finish my assignment. so that's what i'm doing now, typing on my brothers laptop by the fireplace at 1145 because my computer is a piece of CRAP!

Knott's Thanksgiving

Thanksgiving, to me, is more than just food. I love going to my grandparent's house. There are about 40 people in a small brick house spread throughout. As soon as we get in the house we are greeted with smiles and a hot aroma from the fireplace that is always on. We have all learned our lessons to wear short sleeves in November to their house because the house is at a constant 90 degrees F. Our family is always the last one there. My grandmother will call us a couple days prior telling us to be there at 12, but then the day comes, it will be 10 and she will be calling wondering where we all are. After the greetings, we all gather in the kitchen around the table and say grace. After grace, we will diserse where the adults stay in the kitchen and the children will eat in another room. After the meal, the younger children will hang out in the newer living room, and most of the wives and older children will seat in the kitchen and gossip about everything under the sun, while the males will sit in the extremely hot living room talking about farming and relatives. After an hour or so it seems that people will move around and a game will be started. These games are very random; from drinking games without the drinks to cards. Thanksgiving usually lasts for 5 hours or more before people begin to head for home. I always love being with family and I feel that this is the most important part of Thanksgiving.

Thorn Birds

Yesterday, I went to the library in search of something to read during Eagle Eye Read. As I was looking through the shelves a worn book caught my eye, "The Thorn Birds". I remembered an episode of "Reba" where the actress Melissa Peterman references the thorn birds when talking about a priest. I immediately picked up the book and started reading the reviewes and read nothing but praise from the critics. I took the book and couldn't wait til I would get a chance to read it. I started into the book after school on my way to Christian County. I could hardly put the book down whe our vehicle stopped. It was so good and I was only 50 pages into the book. There was never a slow part and the descriptions of characters and the landscape were described so well. The book is over 600 pages long and the print is very small; there is no way with all the other things I do that I will be able to finish this book anytime soon unless I decide to stray away from my homework. I've talked to several people about the book and each one of them gush about how much they have looke that book and the movie. I can't wait to read this book and look forward to reading the book and seeing the movie.

November 23rd

On November 23rd, I will not be at school. I will be going to an interview that will affect the next 6 years of my life. On November 23rd, I will be going to University of Evansville for an interview for direct entry into their Doctor of Physical Therapy. This program will take six years and if i'm one of about 40 people selected, I will automatically have a spot reserved for me in three years after I get my bachelor's degree in Exercise Science. To qualify for this interview I must have a 26 on the ACT and write a essay explaining why I want to become a Physical Therapist. If I am selected, all I have to do is keep a 3.35 GPA and get my prerequiste classes completed. I am very nervous about this interview, it is the most important thing in my life right now. I can not mess this up.

Quote on affecting life

"We do not simply live our lives for ourselves, but for those who came before us and after us", means that decisions made by elders and ancestors affect us, and decisions made by us will affect younger generations. The decisions made by lawmakers years ago to use up gas and not look for an answer of alternative fuel is affecting our generation right now and it will continue to affect generations to come. Also, history is a way to look back and realize mistakes and not make them again; previous generations did help us in this way because now we know not to use certain medications for diseases and other things. Some decisions made by earlier generations affect me personally also. My grandmother never stressed school to my mother and her sisters and brother, so after high school my mother became a hair dresser. Some years later my mother realized that she couldn't make a living from fixing hair so she went back to school to further her education. She was a non-traditional student with 3 children and a husband. She would drive 45 minutes to classes and then come back home and work in town at her job. She graduated with a bachelor's degree in Occupational Therapy. She learned from this that education is very important and has engrained this in my mind how important education is and that is the reason why i want to be a physical therapist. Her decision has affected me and I hope that it will positively affect more generation to come.

Sadie Hawkins

Tonight is Sadie Hawkins and for the first time it is in October and it will be raining. Sadies has always been in September on a very pretty night. Now i'm probably going to have to take a rowboat to the game tonight because it has been raining for two days straight with little break in between. I dread also watching the football game because Apollo is playing one of probably the best teams in the state, Owensboro. The score is going to be 50-0. But if we lose I don't think that will ruin my night because the dance is afterward and that's what i care about. I have a very fun date and can't wait to go to the dance. Although he has been sick for the past 3 days I'm hoping he took my advise and drank 5 gallons of orange juice so that he will feel better. I also hope that I contradict his disease. Overall, their is alot riding against tonight, but i'm hoping my positive attitude will make tonight a great night.

There's Something in my Attic

When i was little, I was always afraid of the dark. But i didn't get afraid of the dark until i was about 7. I was so afraid that i would have to sleep on the side of the bed closest to the hallway door and i would never turn my head to look behind me to the window. I also would not dangle my arms off the bed because i was afraid that the animal or creature under my bed would bite off my hand. I would have to leave my hallway door open in case i heard someone coming up the stairs or if someone came through my window. Also, i would have to have my closet door closed completely so if something comes out of it i would be able to hear or see them come out. To this day i still have to have my hallway door open and my closet door completely closed. But i have gotten better where i don't have to sleep on one side of the bed or keep all my body parts on the bed. I'm not afraid of the dark anymore but i'm so used to doing this certain things that i can't not do in case something does happen.

Autumn

Autumn is a very pretty time of the year. This is when all the leaves change colors and the transition into winter begins. But i do not really like the fall season. I hate the cold weather. I am very cold natured, and if the temperature is less than 70 degrees i have to wear a jacket. For the past 3 weeks i have been wrapped around in my blanket at my house even though it is 73 degrees inside my house. I also hate cold feet and cold hands. It's so depressing for me to be cold. And fall is the season that starts the cold. So i do enjoy the fall season looking at the colors of the trees and jumping in leave piles, but the major turnoff for me is the cold weather. It's only been fall for a couple weeks and i'm already tired of having to wear a jacket when i go outside. I'm not going to enjoy this weather for Sadie Hawkins. The positive side of fall is that in 6 monthes it will be spring and the weather will get warm again.

Catholic Homecoming

This past weekend i went to Catholic's Homecoming. I went with Chase Carrico. I have a lot of friends that go to Catholic, so I really wanted to go and hang out with them. Chase asked me and i was so excited. I spent the next two weeks getting my dress and figuring out the details of the night. It was on Saturday. Two of my friends came over to my house and got ready with me. At 6 o'clock we meet the guys and a few other people at English Park to take pictures. There was 10 of us total but one person wasn't there yet so just 9 showed up. All day I used optimism and declared that it will not rain, even though the clouds in the sky suggested a tornado. The clouds looked so scary that I was scared to get out of the car. The clouds were quickly approaching, so we quickly got into our places and snapped three pictures before the wind came. The wind didn't just began as a breeze and increase; it started as a huge gust that almost blew us all over. I quickly ran in my high heels to my friends car and got in. We showed up at the restaurent 45 minutes early and had to wait 45 minutes. I was having a blast so far. Everyone was so funny and nice. After our dinner we were alittle tired so we dashed to the gas station and picked up some energy drinks. When we got to the dance, we weren't allowed to have drinks, so i have to chug my energy drink and I felt like passing out afterwards. I know now never to do that again. But the energy drink did work. I have never had soo much fun in my entire life. I danced the whole night when I usually just stand the whole night. I also had a really fun date and fun friends that will dance also. I will never forget this night as I learned that dances can be fun.

College

I want to be a physical therapist. I've always wanted to be a doctor but i don't like lots of blood so because physical therapist have to become doctors now I have decided to become one. My mom is a occupational therapist so she was influenced me to aspire to become a physical therapist. The colleges I'm looking at are Unversity of Evansville, Bellarmine Unversity, and UK. My top choice is Unversity of Evansville. I want to get away from the people here in Owensboro and not many people attend UofE. Also their physical therapy program is better than the programs here in Kentucky. UE has a direct entry program which means that if you have a 26 ACT score and write a good enough essay then you have a spot reserved for you when you finish undergrad. This is amazing to me because at Bellarmine and UK you have to compete and apply along with 400+ students to a program with 40 to 50 seats. Also, UE isn't too far away from home and I know the Evansville area pretty well. Early registration is November 1 and I can't wait to apply and hopefully get accepted into UE and get into the direct entry program!!

Spring

Summer is my favorite time of the year. But spring is my second favorite. I love the end of winter. That's probably my favorite part of spring. I hate the cold weather and spring means the beginning of warm weather. The flowers start to bloom and the trees lose their bare look. Also the air is different. When spring comes you can smell everything coming back to life. I hate being outside in the winter looking at all the dead flowers, dead grass, and dead trees. The color green is perfect for spring because green is a calming color and peaceful and beautiful. Spring is pretty but I does bring the promise of summer.

Potatoes

Potatoes is like Macaroni and Cheese. It's a comfort food. You can potatoes and be full and not have to eat anything else. Everyone likes some form of potatoes. I like all kinds of potates, mashed, french fries, cooked, sweet, baked, and cheesy potatoes. My favortie type of potatoes is baked. I like Texas Roadhouse's potatoes the best. I love all the cheese and butter and sour cream that overfollows the potato. I eat some form of potatoes at least 6 times a week. Potatoes never get old. I don't know what i would do or eat if i didn't have a comfort food like potatoes.

Beowulf Movie

Just recently we finished the Beowulf movie that was created in 2007. Of course we read the book first and I will have to say that the movie is one of the biggest let down when it comes to making a movie from the book. The movie was sooo different from the poem that it shouldn't have even been called Beowulf. I wish that during the movie I could have set outside the room and done something productive with my life instead of wasting my time watching a movie that I wouldn't have liked even if we watched the movie first. I don't understand why anyone would want to buy or even watch this pathetic excuse for a movie. Also the chosen actor for Grendel's mother is about the worst choice for an actor ever. In my opinion Angeline Jolie is a horrible actor and is not pretty at all. If the director had actually read the story of Beowulf, maybe he would have made a good movie.

ACT

Today I took the ACT. I hope i never have to take it again. This was the third time I have taken the ACT and I still didn't know everything on it. It seems like the math section gets harder and harder while the other three sections get easier and easier. The english section was the first part of the test, and after that was over I thought that I would be fine with the math since I had spent hours reviewing over math problems in preparation. But I was completely wrong. Thank goodness that you are allowed to guess on the ACT otherwise I would have stared at the packet for 60 minutes. I was completely lost the whole time and felt that I needed to cry because of how hard I worked to get my score up and now the math is going to take it all down. It's very frustrating. The other two sections were a BREEZE! I hoping that my other three scores will equal out the math section so that I will get a 28 or 29 on the ACT. Overall I have concluded that I don't want to take the ACT anymore. All that studying and you are still lost.

Labor Day Weekend

On my Labor Day weekend, I spent the way time studying for the ACT and writing scholarship essays. Even though it sounds like a horrible way to spend your weekend i enjoyed it because i feel more prepared for college life. I'm taking the ACT this coming weekend, September 12th. I've been really nervous about it because I need to bump my score up a few points to get some scholarship money for college. I also looked up scholarships because college is not cheap and my mom has been badgering me for months to get to work on scholarships and i figured if i devoted my weekend to finding and applying for scholarships she would get off my back for a couple weeks. I secretly enjoyed it because i feel ahead of my classmates for finding scholarships and getting money for college. I found a book at the library that taught me how to write an essay and put an entirely new perspective on how to write an essay. This book was very informational and i enjoyed reading it. Overall, I felt I did many things this weekend and I'm proud of what i accomplished.

Tuesdays with Morrie

As I was looking for a book to help me on the ACT I noticed the title "Tuesdays with Morrie". I looked at the title again, and thought, "this sounds familar. I'm going to get it." So I picked up the book and begin reading it and i could hardly put the book down. The main character in the book has ALS and I knew someone that had ALS that died recently, so i connected with it on a personal level. The book was very inspirational. The guy that had ALS is a professor at a university and even though he knew he was going to die, he didn't look down on himself or wish people would feel sorry for him. He wanted to be around people and talk to people while he was sick so he didn't have to concentrate on the sickness. When asked what he would do if he had one day of perfect health he simply replied, "I would walk up and take a walk in the park, visit friends, and go dancing with friends." He is an amazing guy and I was really inspired by his words and I look at many things differently now. I recommend it to everyone.

Fear

Why do we get scared to talk to new people? I'm always very shy and guarded when i meet new people or am put out of my comfort zone. In my Public Speaking class, I wasn't nervous to give my speech until the class begin, and after that i could hardly breathe or even remember my speech. I ended up not even going because i couldn't remember any of my speech. But why am I so scared to stand up and talk about a memory to 16 other students. I'm not scared to talk to my friends about it. They're people too. I know I'm not the only person to feel this way but it's very frustrating to see people overcome that fear and stand up in front of class and talk three minutes about themselves. I should feel privelged to get to talk about myself and people have to listen but it's the exact opposite. I always convince myself these people in my class are out to get me and if I even open my mouth then I will be laughed at and hated for something random. Alot of people made their speeches and I know mine is better than there's but I didn't want others to judge that. I'm think that I have a very harsh judge of character. When I first meet someone I look at what they are wearing, what they are talking about, and even the way they act towards me or others. This doesn't mean that i judge people and hate most. I don't like very few people. But if i disagree with someone for one of these reasons then I usually distance myself from them, and I'm ashamed by that. But that's the way that i've always been.

First Speech

On Thursday for my Public Speaking class i'm taking at OCTC i have to make my first speech. The topic is a "vivid memory". I have decided to speak about playing Castle High School in softball. This is a great memory because our team was just coming out of a 12 game losing streak and we needed some major confidence. Castle High has one of the top teams in the state of Indiana. Our team was just excepting the game to be very quick and then be able to go home. One of our best players was out for an ankle injuries so we were down a player also. The game started and after the first inning we had scored a run. We were excited. Towards the end of the game the score was 2 - 2. We were pinching ourselves. It was one of the best games we have ever played. We would have bases loaded with no outs and then get a double play and Castle would not score a run. It was the bottom of the 7th inning and i was first to the plate. I was facing Brinks and she is one of the most feared pitchers in the tristate. I was walked. No outs bottom of the 7th and a runner on 1st. i was pinched runned so i could save my energy for pitching. the next batter bunted and moved Paige Thompson( pinch runner) up to second. Then another out was recorded for a fly out, leaving Paige at second. Sarah Tanner was up to bat and she had been struggling at the plate recently like most of us. She hits a little blooper out to left field that the left fielder conviently misses so Paige know rounding third and coach is senting her home. The left fielder picks up the ball and launching it to home. Paige Thompson is halfway home and trips and falling on her butt. She struggles to get up ( at this time the ball is going over her head and we notice that it is going over the catchers head). Paige is starting to go back to third and then coach yells at her to turn around and run home. She stumbles turning around to go home and when she reaches home i'm there yelling at her and jumping up and down screaming and flailing my arms. I grab her and hit her on the head and hug her and then i hit her again and hug her again. This was the best game that we had ever played.