Worn Out

I am officially worn out. I pitched 24 innings in two days this past weekend and then had to pitch 7 innings on Monday. Thankfully we were playing Mclean County so it didn't matter that I wasn't on the top of my game. But I was lobbying the ball into the batters the entire time. I was soo tired that it didn't bother me at all that this weak team only had four strikeouts from me. I know I'm better than that and that I could easily have had 8 or more if I was 100 percent. Still today I am worn out from school, softball, and all other things. I am soo ready for school to be over as well as softball. I will have sooo much more time to work and make money. AND RELAX. That is what I really want to do, is take a complete day off from everything to catch up on everything. But that won't happen for a long time. I just look forward to it.

Telephone

Yesterday I watched the video from Lady Gaga called "Telephone". She sang this song with Beyonce. This was one of the weirdest videos I've ever seen in my entire life. This song is about her boyfriend that is constantly trying to contact her while she is at a club and Lady Gaga wants to be left alone. But the video is completely different. First Lady Gaga is in jail and she is dancing around in jail in bra and underwear and then there is a girl fight and a makeout session. Then Beyonce bails her out of jail and they go to a random diner in the desert and put poison in all the food and kill all the people at the diner. Then the police start to look for them and the two storm off together. The end of the video says "to be continued..." but I don't think I want to see what happens. This was definitely one of the weirdest videos I've ever seen.

Finished 1200 pages

I finally finished the book Atlas Shrugged, and I have to say it was one of the best books I've ever read. It was something different that I had never read before. It was all about capitalist and socialist ideas and different philosophies. But it wasn't shoving these ideas down your throat. It was a fiction story that showed the effects of public welfare and really opened my eyes to the extremes that happen in a nation that is obsessed with helping the so called "poor". The book's themes really hit home on me and I agreed with alot of them. After finishing this book I now look at the world differently and consider our government and the welfare system differently. I wish I could pull out one quote, but there are so many to pull out and I can't remember all of them. One quote that doesn't really deal with philosophy but that I love is, "Who is John Galt?" This means why ask questions that no ones knows the answer too. I would recommend this book to anyone that wants to read something that will change your views and will give one a whole new view of philosophy, and that doesn't mind to read 1159 pages...

Graduation Dress

Last week I got my graduation dress. I went to Bowling Green and looked around at the mall and couldn't find anything! It was so depressing driving back home empty handed after a full day of shopping. Then the next day, my mom calls me and tells me to come to excursions to try on some dresses she had found. I was looking for a springy/summery dress, that was mid-thigh and had straps. When I got to the store the lady already had me a dressing room set up and about ten dresses to try on. The first few were ok but nothing was standing out. I was justing wanting to find a fairly cheap dress that would make me feel pretty. Well I ended up finding it there in Excursions. It was peachy orange with a strap that tied behind my neck. It was also mid thigh and made me look very pretty and thin. It has black thin lines running in spirals across and also a white background. I can't really describe it, but I can't wait to try it on.

The End

I have decided that after my senior year of high school softball that that will be the last time I play organized competive softball. I have been playing softball/baseball since I was 5. The reality of this has recently hit me over the last two weeks and it I haven't gotten fully used to this idea of being done with something after spending years training to be the best. I always thought that I would go to college and continue to play softball and for a time I wanted to go to the pros. I realized quickly that I didn't want to do the pro thing. But over the previous summer I decided that I didn't want to even play in college. I wanted to do something different in my life and concentrate more on my studies since the rest of my life will be reflected on my academics not sports. Now every game I consider how this will be the last time I play this team or travel to a certain place. The reality of this is weird to me and I know I will miss it, but right now I'm realizing all the positives of this decision and the very few negatives. It's exciting to be done with this part of my life.

My type of weather

So this week has been the warmest all week. It started out raining on Sunday, but by Monday the fields and streets were mainly dried out so we could play our game. It was windy and when the sun was behind the clouds it was freezing! On Tuesday, it was in the 70's and it felt AMAZING! We played a game, and all we needed was our light Under Armour. I was actually sweating during our softball game. But the best day so far this week is today. It was 80 degrees outside which is my favorite temperate. Warm but not too too warm. I wanted so bad to put on a bathing suit and jump in the lake or pool. I LOVE the summertime and that was exactly how it felt today. No matter how bad my day was I knew walking outside and feeling the breeze would make my day, perfect.

things to do:

Here's a list of things I want to do before I die in no particular order:
1. Be happily married
2. Have children
3. Become a physical therapist
4. Go to Ireland
5. Take a train ride
6. Visit a deserted tropical island
7. Do karaoke to an unknown crowd
8. Camp old school
9. Go deep-sea fishing
10. Go on a successful hunting trip
11. Meet Sarah Palin
12. Read all the classics
13. Visit England
14. Go abroad on a mission trip
15. Meet Gerard Butler
16. Write a song
17. Inspire someone
And number one, BE HAPPY.