Fear

Why do we get scared to talk to new people? I'm always very shy and guarded when i meet new people or am put out of my comfort zone. In my Public Speaking class, I wasn't nervous to give my speech until the class begin, and after that i could hardly breathe or even remember my speech. I ended up not even going because i couldn't remember any of my speech. But why am I so scared to stand up and talk about a memory to 16 other students. I'm not scared to talk to my friends about it. They're people too. I know I'm not the only person to feel this way but it's very frustrating to see people overcome that fear and stand up in front of class and talk three minutes about themselves. I should feel privelged to get to talk about myself and people have to listen but it's the exact opposite. I always convince myself these people in my class are out to get me and if I even open my mouth then I will be laughed at and hated for something random. Alot of people made their speeches and I know mine is better than there's but I didn't want others to judge that. I'm think that I have a very harsh judge of character. When I first meet someone I look at what they are wearing, what they are talking about, and even the way they act towards me or others. This doesn't mean that i judge people and hate most. I don't like very few people. But if i disagree with someone for one of these reasons then I usually distance myself from them, and I'm ashamed by that. But that's the way that i've always been.

First Speech

On Thursday for my Public Speaking class i'm taking at OCTC i have to make my first speech. The topic is a "vivid memory". I have decided to speak about playing Castle High School in softball. This is a great memory because our team was just coming out of a 12 game losing streak and we needed some major confidence. Castle High has one of the top teams in the state of Indiana. Our team was just excepting the game to be very quick and then be able to go home. One of our best players was out for an ankle injuries so we were down a player also. The game started and after the first inning we had scored a run. We were excited. Towards the end of the game the score was 2 - 2. We were pinching ourselves. It was one of the best games we have ever played. We would have bases loaded with no outs and then get a double play and Castle would not score a run. It was the bottom of the 7th inning and i was first to the plate. I was facing Brinks and she is one of the most feared pitchers in the tristate. I was walked. No outs bottom of the 7th and a runner on 1st. i was pinched runned so i could save my energy for pitching. the next batter bunted and moved Paige Thompson( pinch runner) up to second. Then another out was recorded for a fly out, leaving Paige at second. Sarah Tanner was up to bat and she had been struggling at the plate recently like most of us. She hits a little blooper out to left field that the left fielder conviently misses so Paige know rounding third and coach is senting her home. The left fielder picks up the ball and launching it to home. Paige Thompson is halfway home and trips and falling on her butt. She struggles to get up ( at this time the ball is going over her head and we notice that it is going over the catchers head). Paige is starting to go back to third and then coach yells at her to turn around and run home. She stumbles turning around to go home and when she reaches home i'm there yelling at her and jumping up and down screaming and flailing my arms. I grab her and hit her on the head and hug her and then i hit her again and hug her again. This was the best game that we had ever played.