Fear

Why do we get scared to talk to new people? I'm always very shy and guarded when i meet new people or am put out of my comfort zone. In my Public Speaking class, I wasn't nervous to give my speech until the class begin, and after that i could hardly breathe or even remember my speech. I ended up not even going because i couldn't remember any of my speech. But why am I so scared to stand up and talk about a memory to 16 other students. I'm not scared to talk to my friends about it. They're people too. I know I'm not the only person to feel this way but it's very frustrating to see people overcome that fear and stand up in front of class and talk three minutes about themselves. I should feel privelged to get to talk about myself and people have to listen but it's the exact opposite. I always convince myself these people in my class are out to get me and if I even open my mouth then I will be laughed at and hated for something random. Alot of people made their speeches and I know mine is better than there's but I didn't want others to judge that. I'm think that I have a very harsh judge of character. When I first meet someone I look at what they are wearing, what they are talking about, and even the way they act towards me or others. This doesn't mean that i judge people and hate most. I don't like very few people. But if i disagree with someone for one of these reasons then I usually distance myself from them, and I'm ashamed by that. But that's the way that i've always been.